Thursday, July 23, 2009
All of my old blogs ...
Eythen James
My little two year old. Our family was not complete with out you. I remember the day that your Daddy and I found out that we were having a boy. Daddy did not even hug me, because he took off running into Burnap Brothers shouting "I am having a boy finally!" Needless to say, I was scared out of my mind. All I knew the past 3 years of being a Mommy was the color pink and big bows. I did not know what to do with a boy.
Then on September 30th at 7:00 in the morning you were born by c-section. The moment they let me hold you, all those fears went away. You were the most handsome little man I had ever seen. You looked just like Breeanna and Harleigh. You had curly dark hair and all the "boy parts" you were suspose to have (Daddy checked MANY times to be sure).
I remember there was a waiting room full of people to see that you were born. But that is about all I remember beacause the pain killers kicked in (Daddy called them the "I love you" medicine because I told everyone I loved them when I was on it. Including the doctors and nurses!)
I love your curly hair, your blue eyes, your long fingers and big hands, the way you light up when you hear the garage door open and know someone is coming in, your little birth mark on the small of your back, how you hardly spoke any words but could say "Jayhawk", the wrinkle of fat on your wrist, the way your skin is just so soft, your innoncence, how cute you look in your "big boy boxer/brief pants", the way you swing your arms when you walk down the hall, tucking youin at night and you kissing my forehead, watching you trying to throw the ball and it just drops out of your hands, when you "pretend to laugh", when the girls try to get you to do their ballet moves, how sweet you are, when I tuck you in and whipser "I will love you for forever, I will like you for always. As long as I am living, my baby you will be", , and that you are my favorite baby boy in the whole world!
You are what completed this family Eythen. You made the four of us become five. There has never ben a dull moment since you arrived. You have us scared a number of times from not knowing the health of you before you were born, to the RSV hospital stay, to the tubes in the ears, numerious ER visits we have had, and all the bumps and falls you have taken. We love you so very much E-Man and could not be prouder to call you our baby boy! Mommy and Daddy love you!
Harleigh Jene
Oh Bugs. My crazy little four year old. You have most definately made us laugh so many times we have lost count! You were baby girl number 2 in this family. Your Daddy and I bought you brand new things so you would not have a single hand-me-down (even though your big sister was only 13 months old when you wer born).
On October 22 at 7 in the morning you were born into this family by c-section. You were a good pregnancy. I was at work every day and worked up to the day you arrived. You were a blessing in so many ways. Breeanna was certain that you were her new little doll that we brought home.
Bugs, I love your huge dark brown eyes, how your hair is crazy in the morning, how you call Eythen "little buddy", your unbelievable love for animals, watching you look at yourself in the mirror when you do not think anyone is watching, when you do a thumbs up to us while winking, how you can stay entertained for hours with your Polly Pockets, how independent you are in life, your smile when you are trying SO hard to be extra sweet, when you have pig tails in your hair with big bows on each side, your innocent voice, when you skip, how when we take you to the KU football games you only care about the cheerleaders, when you say "Let's get out of here", when I tuck you in and you whisper "I love you" to me, when you do not want to do something you plain and simply say "not right now", how you want to get a nose ring just like Mommy, and kissing your chubby little cheeks and you laughing about it.
Bugs, you amaze me in little ways. For expample how you one day told me that this is my collar bone. What! You know where your collar bone is but you sometimes thin there is a "z" in your name. You are so smart and loveable that Daddy and I can not get enough of you. You simply make everyone smile.
Harleigh you have brought just what we needed into this family; never a dull moment! You are our middle baby girl and NOTHING will ever replace the special place you have in our hearts. You are one of a kind and they broke the mold when God made you. Mommy and Daddy love you, Bugs!
Breeanna Nichole
Breeanna . . . our little sissy. I remember the day that your Daddy and I found out that we were pregnant with you. I think we sat in silence staring at each other for 15 minutes or so. You were our honeymoon baby (our Jamaica suvenior is what Daddy called you) and the best gift we could have gotten for our wedding.
On July 23rd after being in labor for 26 hours, you were born by c-section. You were the first baby on both sides of the family. You had enough clothes for a set of triplets. And boy did I have fun dressing you in pink and bows. You taught us so much and put up with us learning as we grew together.
Sissy, I love your unbelievable blue eyes, your curly hair, how innoncent your smile is and heart catching at the same time, that you are our big helper, how sensitive you are, that you have a memory like I have never seen before, your passion for coloring, when you sound out words and try to write me a letter, your excitement for tap and ballet, how caring you are to everyone around you, how you do not like Felix to sleep on your bed (because he takes up to much space), when you try to do your own hair, how grown up you look when we straighten your hair, when I took you to your first day of kindergarten and you just took off smiling (you were much braver than Mommy that day), when I tuck you in at night you whisper with me "I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, As long as I am living, My baby you'll be, how you love to go shopping with me, how good you are at sports, and that you are and will always be our baby girl.
Breeanna not a day goes by that I do not look at you and nearly get tears in my eyes because you are growing up so very fast and I can not slow it down. You have brought so much life and energy to your Daddy and I.
Sissy, I want you to know that you may be our oldest, but you hold a special place in our heart because you were our first at everything (Daddy's first diaper change!). You are my pride and joy and I look forward to learning so much more from you. Always remember Breeanna, that Mommy and Daddy love you!
Our newest family member ...
Well, after 8 years of Clint telling me that he wants a dog. And then the kids tugging at our heart for the past year. I caved in and welcomed a new member into this family.
We went to the pet store, Pet Land, in Olathe today. I knew once we walked in we would not be walking out without some sort of pet to join our cat, Felix. The dogs sure were cute! Harleigh of course, wanted them all. She was going crazy just looking at them. Eythen was drawn to a huge Lab. He kept tapping the window saying "Hey Tuppy! Hey Tuppy!" The dog would put his paw on the glass and Eythen would just laugh. Breeanna was drawn to this little rat looking mut of a dog. (poor thing was not cute) We narrawed it down to two of them (that we could afford! Who charges $2000 for a dog!) and they put the girls into a little room to see how they interacted together. They were jumping on Harleigh and licking her. They chased her in a circle. Breeanna got out and wanted to check out the hamsters and bunnies. Eythen was still entertained with the large dog. After 45 minutes of deciding which one would be the best for our family, Harleigh chose a little black dog with huge curls called a "Snoodle" (part something and part tea cup poodle). The sale associate was wonderful with the kids. She took them around the whole store and told them what they needed to pick up to take care of our new pet. They carried all the items around and thought they were really cool for being "big" kids and "buying" the items.
While we were waiting for the adoption process, Harleigh decided that she also wanted fish and Breeanna wanted hamsters. (No we did not come home with them, too!) As we were walking out with our new puppy, the girls both decided on the name, Lucy. She is as cute as can be. (She is asleep right now. ahhh) When we were getting the kids in their car seats, Harleigh asked if she could hold, Lucy. As Clint is handing Lucy to Harleigh, Harleigh says "Well where is Breeanna and Eythen's puppy?" Clint told her that Lucy was all of our puppy and she says "No she is mine. Where is there's?" We had to laugh over that one.
So there you have it. When I married Clint I promised that we would never have a dog. I am not a dog person. They scare me. But three kids later, who am I to say no to them having something so innocent and important in their lives. I have a friend who had a dog named, Molly. She had that dog from her childhood and it just passed away about 8 months ago. She told me that Molly was there for her through everything and I could see how much that dog meant to her. I pictured my kids with such an important aspect in their life and knew I could not say no to my babies. Plus, I think Harleigh batted her eyes long enough to Clint that he could not take breaking her heart another day.
I will look back on this and laugh ...
Ok . . . . How it happened, I do not know. Why it happened, I do not know. When exactally it happened, I do not know.
Let me start at the beginning. I was back in Clint's & my room folding laundry. I was folding back by the bathroom because our new puppy likes to drag the clothes off & I was tired of chasing her all over to get back a piece of clothing. Harleigh & Eythen were watching Dora the Explorer (or so I thought). Harleigh came into my room and said "Mommy, Eythen just colored on the wall." I told her that I would be there in a second. In my head, I thought he got one of the crayons out and scribbled on the wall. Nothng big. Nothing to rush into the living room for. He was 2, he could not do that big of damage. It could wait until I was done folding the laundry, right!? WRONG!!!
I walked out of our room heading down the hallway when I spotted it . . . the CANVAS of markers ON MY HALLWAY!!!! Oh yeah!!!!! Both sides covered just high enough to wear they could not reach it anymore. (I say "they" because I found out later that Harleigh was part of the "master plan".) I stood there in shock. Then at the end of the hallway I spotted Eythen admiring his artwork IN THE LIVING ROOM!!! Oh yeah!!! My walls in the living room were done just as high as his little hands could stretch up to. I turned to my left and my FRIG even got a color job to it!
I just sat down on the floor shaking my head. The tears started to fill up in my eyes. Why would my son do this? Hadn't I taught him better than this. Yeah, he is only 2, BUT he is taught better than this. Or so I thought. I looked up to Harleigh rubbing my shoulder saying "I only colored the little picture of the cheeseburger over there. Eythen did ALL the rest." I looked over at Eythen and he was pointing to his "art work" saying "No No!!!!!" I looked at him and said "You think?"
I then noticed Eythen taking off down the hall. He turned around to look at me & said "Tome Heeere!" I got up & followed him. We got into the girls room & there it was! OH YEAH!!!! More art work. My brand new freshly painted walls were now a 2 years olds canvas.
I just could not control the crying by then. I called Clint, but only gasp of air would come out. (Let me remind you that his new place of employment DOES NOT go for phone calls during work.) Finally when I got it out, & told him, he said "Ok, I will call you later." I am not sure what I thought would happen by me calling Clint. Did I actually think a 2 year old would know that I was calling "Daddy"? Did I think that would put some fear in him. Uhhhh . . . . NO! He just kept pointing at it saying "No NO!!!"
Clint called me when he got off of work & asked if my tears had stopped falling. Then he laughed & said "How many Magic Erase's do I need to buy."
The donut snatcher ...
Cloudy days ... love it!!!
That yucky feeling ...
Sunday, February 04, 2007 So my baby girl, Breeanna has the flu. My poor baby. She has a fever of 102, which has made her littls cheeks all rosey and red. She has that "look" in her eyes. You know, the one that just says "I can not even move because every inch of me aches".
So Clint went to Lawrence to get her a bunch of movies and a milk shake (by her request). I tucked her in her top bunk all tight and cozy. She has a cup with Spite next to her. She is in her favortie pajamas. Her hair is pulled back out of her face. And she has her pink "blankie" snuggled up next to her.
Why is it when we are sick, even as audlts, all we want is our Mommy's. Mommy's are what makes us feel better. Mommy makes that "icky" feeling not so bad. Mommy is the one that knows exactly what to do. I know even to this day when I am sick, I tell Clint "I want my Mommy", in that voice that would make anyone feel sorry for you. I guess there is just something about a Mommy that makes all the bad go away no matter how old we get in lfe.
I don't get it ...
Just my husband and I ...
Quotes by Harleigh ...
4 year old is one of a kind. She says some of the darnest things.
: "Good news is, I did not hurt my brain."
: "You sure are a grumpy old troll."
: "Let's get out of here."
: "You are freaking me out."
: I AM going to pick up my room. I just NOW decided that I WANT to do it."
: "Come on little buddy."
: "Don't worry Mommy, I only did that part. Eythen did ALL the rest."
: "You are my sunshine, my only sunhine. You make me happy, when skies are gravy."
: "What is that smell?"
: "It is just me, Harleigh . . . not Breeanna or Eythen."
: "What is today? Is it tomorrow yet?"
; "Don't worry, my puppy (a stuffed animal of hers) has a body, not just a head. It is just sitting in my purse."
: "That's because . . . "
Are you kidding me ...
Ok . . . this being sick thing is for the birds. My family can not seem to get rid of it. It totally sucks. My poor little Breeanna seems to get hit by it the worse. She missed a full week of school in January. All she ever had was a fever. Never a complaint about anything hurting. Just tired with a fever.
Two weeks ago, I got the throwing up flu on Sunday. Eythen got it Sunday night, then Harleigh Monday evening, and Breeanna early Tuesday morning. It was horrible! But some how Clint missed out on it all. No idea how the whole house got it and he did not. But so far he is free and clear.
Then this past Tuesday I got a call from the school saying Breeanna had a headache and a fever. I sent her back to school on Wednesday thinking she was fine. After I droped her off, about an hour later, my head began to hurt. So I checked my temperature and sure enough I had one. About an hour later Eythen was curled up on the chair and his cheeks were beet red. I checked to see if he had a temperature and he did. Not more than an hour after that, Harleigh was in the couch with a fever saying her head hurt. Argh!!! Will this sickness ever end.
I went to bed Wednesday night thinking that everyone was fine. Temperatures were gone, kids had been playing, all we well . . . or so I thought. I woke up at 1:30 am to Breeanna crying next to my bed saying her head hurt again. I felt her head and she had a fever AGAIN!!! Two seconds later Harleigh was crying. I went into her room and she said her head hurt and she was warm AGAIN!!! Wait a minute . . . is that Eythen crying, too? Yep! Eythen was dripping in sweat because his fever was so bad. Poor baby! Not to mention my head hurt, but I did not have time to even think about that. I poped some Tylenol and began to take care of my babies.
So ... that is why I started this blog at 2:30 am. I had Harleigh on the love seat covered up, Breeanna on the couch covered up and Eythen was in his room watching a movie. Sigh . . . . I have used more Lysol than I ever thought possible!!! I have washed every possible bit of cloth in this house. Not to mention I have bought more liquid Tylenol for the kids than one person should have to on a year (Let alone two months).
Clint you ask . . . is he sick yet? No not yet, but he did say that three people on his crew were out since Friday afternoon and Monday. So I am betting that he will get hit, but the question is when and how bad.
Girls Night ...
Oh No ...
Beer to soften the blow ...
Fresh air blowing ...
March 27th, 2007
I am sitting here with the windows open in the house with the air blowing in the windows. What a feeling that is!!! I can hear the birds chirping and our neighbors are mowing their lawn. The sounds are so famaliar and that glimpses of spring are in the air. Spring just makes you want to go out and run around the block like a kid again. The fresh air and great temperature is soothing to the soul. This the first time since Clint and I have lived together in 7 years that I HAVE a deck door to open and let fresh air in. This is the first time that I can open the windwos myself and not have Clint bangingin on them because they are stuck shut again (oh our good "ol house on Mechanic Street). You truely forget how great it makes you feel having fresh air in your house.
We live 2 houses from the nieghborhood park and you can hear kids playing and laughing throughout the day. People are out walking their dogs till night time is falling. Neighbors stop by to chat with you if you are out in the front of you house. It is just a great neighborhood to be in and Spring is letting Cint and i see it. It is just completely different from when we lived in Emporia and lived on Mechanic street and had people flying down a one way street, drunks throwing beer bottles in our yard, someone spray painting our privacy fence, stealing things from our yard, and of course someone breaking the windows in my Sequoia. And we did not have the best neighbors on Mechanic street . . . they are not the type to stop and say hi to you . . . they were more the type to look out their window and see if you were doing something they could call the cops on you for.
I am truely loving being at home with this kids right now, too. We walked to school this morning, played at the park when we got back and had a picnic outside for lunch. Yeah, spring means less clothing (which means no baggy sweatshirt to cover up those fat spots), but I am SO ok with that this year. Yeah, I am chunky but who cares. I am a great Mom and Clint and I are more in love right now than we ever have been. So I will lay in the tanning bed to get some color and put on the shorts and forget about the flaws that I have always wanted to get rid of. They are not going to go anywhere, so I might as well except the extra "pounds" that I have on myself and live life to the fullest. Because there is no one that is going to live my life better for me than myself!!!
Another year older ...
Well, I am learning to embarace my thirties completely. I did not want to turn thirty I wanted to remain in my twenties. Twenties meant that I was still youthful. Thirties meant that I was no longer . . . well . . . . no longer young. But I have learned that this is so untrue. I am still as silly, fun loving, crazy, snort when I laugh girl that I was when I was twenty. But now that I am thirty, I can be those things as an "adult" (lol) After all . . . a good friend told me that 30 is the new 21!!!
I have to say though, that I have learned alot over the past year. There are two big things that I have learned over this past year that I think are huge stepping stones into "adulthood". I have learned so much about my marriage and friendship. Two big things in someones life. Right???
Friendship . . . as one gets older you do not have all those "bestfriend" that you had in higschool and junior high. You know what I mean . . . every week you added someone else to your "bestfriend" list. In college you had you party girls and could never imagine life without them. As the years went on, so did peoples lives; kids came into the picture, careers took charge, everyone moved in different directions. Before you knew it, you were keeping in touch once a year with a Christmas card. Basically, there just comes a point in your life that you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. But it is not giving up . . . it is realizing that you don't need certain people and the drama that they bring. So laugh when you can, apologize when you should and let go of what you can not change.
Marriage . . . no one told me that it would be so much work. Clint and I have been together for 9 years this September 30th and married for 7 this September 23rd. We have pushed one anothers buttons daily for the past 9 years. But somehow some way over this past year, with us picking up our family and moving . . . we have became closer than I ever thought possibe. He makes me smile all over again. I get the goose bumps when he holds my hand. I smile just by simply thinking about him. He is my soul mate and I can not imagine life without him. Clint and I have found each other all over again and I will never let go of this feeling that I have in the pit of my stomach for him. He is . . . . he is simply wonderful. I love him with all my heart. He is the reason I draw those silly hearts on my paper.
Tears still fall ...
Before I was a Mom ...
Before I was a Mom
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom -
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom -
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom -
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.
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I read this poem, and every inch of me felt these words. How true it is, that in that very moment of holding your child for the first time . . . everything changes. Your "top priorities" are not what they once were. Poker night turns into numerous games of CandyLand. Girls night consist of watching The LIttle Mermaid and eating popcorn on the couch with your little one. Your "nights out" become "nights in" and you do not mind it at all. Your hopes and dreams that you had earlier in life, turn in an instant into wanting everything to be perfect for your child. Laughing at drunk nights, turns into laughing at what your child said or did that day. You realize that your future is their future and you want them to have it all. You want them to do more, see more, and achieve more than you ever thought that you could do, see and achieve. Everything that you once wanted in life . . . you are now holding in your own arms at that very moment that they come into this world.
Scared, mad, upset, terrified ...
I NEVER thought I would EVER have to blog about MY kids school having a bomb threat! NEVER did I imagine this would happen in my community. But I guess the truth of the matter is . . . it could happen to anyone, at anytime, anywhere.
I am filled with so many mixed emotions right now. I am still shocked and numb about VT College and what they are going through (God Bless all of them). Then on top of that . . . Clint and I have to try to explain to Breeanna, what was all the chaos going on at her school. How do you explain something of that magnatude to a five year old that that could terrify her, mark her future, and effect her in the future ???
I got a phone call at 10 am saying that there was an "threatening situation" at the Eudora Schools. The kids were on lock down and if you chose to get your child, you could do so once in the school office. I did not think twice about it . . . I have never boltted out of the house faster. I wanted my baby in my arms where I could keep her safe and out of harms way. There were parents EVERYwhere in the parking lot. Other parents were helping out in the office to help other fellow parents get their child signed out. Parents were hugging their kids the second the saw them coming down the hallway. Most of the kids had confused looks on their faces and uncertainty in their innocent eyes. All I could do was fight back tears as I walked out the school doors with Breeanna. I wanted her to always feel safe . . . and know that Mommy and Daddy would protect her from anything that was thrown in her way.
As the following hour went by . . . some of the "information" began to leak out about the "threatening situation". It was a bomb threat. FOUR phone calls were done. The first one was at 5 am. The second one was around 6:15 am. That phone call said that they were going to blow up City Hall and the Schools.
My question is . . . why did they allow MY baby girl to go to school in the first place? Why didn't they cancel school instead of getting all those kids in the building and THEN notifying the parents. The thought of "what if" terrifies me! Not to mention . . . after I picked up Breeanna, it hit me . . . When I went to go pick up Breeanna, someone at the school unlocked the door so I could get in; to go to the office to get Breeanna . . . NO one asked for ID from me or asked who or what I needed. With ALL those parents walking in and out of the building ANYone could have gotten by who was NOT a parent. This makes me wonder "what they were thinking". Maybe another percaution should have been taken at that moment as well.
When you are a parent, you believe and feel that the world revolves around your child. You want them to be happy and healthy . . . AND safe!!! Shouldn't the school be ONE of the safe places for them to go and be protected? I mean . . . . after all . . . . this is their future and we want them to have it all and be all that they can. When we drop them off at the doors of the school, we can no longer protect them . . . we trust the school to do so.
You will never regret it ...
Mission complete ...
Puppy Love ...
Oh . . . lordy . . . . it happened . . . my daughter has her first "official" boyfriend. Sure, the girls have said they have boyfriends since they have been in preschool. Geezzz . . . I think she has said that she had four to six different boyfriends this year alone (). But there has always been one little boy that she has always talked about when she comes home from school . . . Dakota.
Lil Dakota is such a sweet little man. His Mom is in charge of the Eudora Youth Soccer, and when he figured out Breeanna was playing soccer he begged his Mom to put Breeanna on his team. In fact, Dakota's older brother was the girls soccer coach, Coach James. The whole family is unbelievably nice! They are the most caring family I have met. ALL four of her boys are such gentlemen! From the moment that they met Clint and I, they have welcomed us with conversation, events, and every day life with open arms. An all around good family.
Breeanna definately has a "crush" on Dakota. I remember my kindergarten "love" . . . his name was Scott. I can remember telling him at recess that I was going to marry him. Oh but wait . . . enough about my flash backs . . . back to my 5 year old and her "boyfriend". So, as I was walking Breeanna into school on Friday, Dakota's Mom and "Coach" James stopped us to tell me that Dakota wrote Breeanna a "love note" and was going to ask her to be his "offical girlfirend". Kim (Dakota's Mom) was laughing so hard. She told me that Dakota would not let her read the note and I had to get her a copy so she could put it in his scrapbook. I could not stop smiling. . . . how funny! How cute! How adorable! How . . . wait a minute . . . how old is she??? Oh yeah 5!!!!! A "boyfriend" ???
So Breeanna came home with her little "love" note. it said: Dear Breeanna, This Dakota. I like you lots. You real pretty. Will you go out with me and be my special girlfriend? Love, Dakota After I read it to her, she shrugged her shoulders and said "So like . .. am I suspose to go out on a date with him now?" (Sigh) I chuckled and said "No, you are not old enough to go out on a date." "But he asked me to go out with him." said Breeanna back to me.
Isn't the innonces of a 5 year old the best. Isn't the momeory of your "first boyrfirend" a memory that you alwasy have! How sweet and perfect is a "crush" at the age of 5. But then I have to bring myself back to reality and realize that she is not going to be 5 forever . . . . in no time flat she is going to be 6 going on 16. Then Clint and I will really have "boyfriends" coming and going. Some breaking her heart, and some hearts she will break. Oh . .. can we just have 5 year old "crushes" last forever???
Everything she needs to know ...
Well . . . the day finally arrived. I did not want it to arrive, but it did. I am not sure how it got here so darn fast. I sure was not ready for it. I am not sure how Clint and I got to this point in our life so darn fast. I am trying to think back to remember where the time went . . . but I can not seem to remember. The day arrived that . . . Breeanna went off to her last day of kindergarten. At 3:03 this afternoon, she will be in the first grade. When did our baby girl grow up and become a FIRST grader?? I remember dreading the first day of school. Last August 15th, the tears were falling like water falls. I cried a month in advance about that day. Now, here I am 9 months later , , , crying all over again.
Kindergarten . . . what a time of miracles in kids lives. It is their "stepping stone" into school and their future. They get their first backpack, first school box to put their brand new crayons in, first time to eat a school lunch, they begin to read, be line leader for the day, weekly show and tell, learn the calendar, add numbers, have gym and music class, check out their own book at the school library, write their own name, have their own desk, use siscors and glue without Mommy standing next to them saying "be careful", have afternoon milk and snack, start to depend on other adults instead of Mommy and Daddy, begin to become their own little people, and figure out who they are going to be in life. Breeanna went to her first swimming party, had her first music program, her first acutal crush, read her first book, had numerous playdates with friends, said "he is so cute" for the first time, played on a soccer team, her first year to do Book-It, took her first Iowa Basic test, first bomb threat at school (unfortunately she had to have that one), her first "snow day", had her first school picture, had to be called into school for the first time because she was sick, had her first kid be mean to her, wore her hair down with no bows for the first time, rode the bus for the first time, went to her first book fair, went to the nurses office for a fever, got her first grade card, had to sit out at recess for the first time, had her first Donuuts for Dad's and Muffins for Mom's, went on her first field trip, woke up excited about school every morning, and grew up right before our eyes.
BUT as she has grown up, Clint and I have seen a WONDERFUL little girl begin to bloom. She is a poliete, caring, adorbale, smart, responsible, little girl who is a huge help with a big heart. She is going to be just fine as she gets older. . . . as long as she always remember what she has learned in kindergarten: Share everything, play fair, don't hit people, put things back where you found them, clean up your own mess, don't take things that are not yours, say you're sorry when you hurt somebody, wash your hands before you eat, flush. warm cookies and cold milk are good for you, say please and thank you, live a balanced life (learn some, think some, draw, paint, sing, dance, play, and work every day some), take a nap every afternoon with your blankie, when you go out into the world -watch out for traffic, hold hands and stick together, be aware of wonder, remember the little seed in the styrofoam cup: the roots go down and the plant goes up and nobody really knows how or why, goldfish and hamsters (and even the little seed in the styrofoam cup) they all die and it is sad, and remember the Dick and Jane books and the first word you learned - the biggest word of all - LOOK!
Oh yeah . . . and Breeanna . . . last night when I was talking to you about your last day of kindergarten . . . and I began to cry. Thank you for being you. (She looked right at me and said "I will always love you, even when I am in the first grade." Then hugged me. Even when she wanted to let go, she didn't. She held on just a little bit longer.) Breeanna, we will always love you, even if you are growing up way to fast! Mommy and Daddy are so proud of our kindergarten graduate!
How many kids are coming ...
Our little MVP ...
Things I have realized recently ...
June 11th, 2007
1. Never take life for granit . . . things could change in the blink of an eye. 2. Patience is a hard thing to have when the world is staring at your kid crying in public. 3. Laying in a tanning bed may not be healthy for you . . . but it sure is relaxing. 4. Marriage can end even for the couple you never thought it would. 5. My sister is just as strong as my Mom . . . and that is saying alot! 6. You are never to old to go see Thomas the Train. (Clint discovered this one with Eythen.) 7. Sticking to a diet is the hardest thing when no one is watching! 8. On the other hand . . . you have 5 other finger. 9. Laughter can be the best medicine on a hard day! 10. There is nothing better than just simply making out! 11. Sometimes no matter how hard you try . . . you just can not please everyone! 12. God works in hidden ways. 13. Going to the movies and watching a cartoon is fun even at 30! 14. I never seem to get a break from laundry. Just when I get it all done and put away, it is time to do another load. 15. Men procastinate! 16. Kids are really hyper in the summer time! 17. Bug spray does not keep away all the bugs. 18. Sleeping in is nice, but can become addictive is you allow it. 19. Water is much better to drink in the hot summer than pop! 20. No matter how high the price of gas gets, we still will have to pay for it because we need it. 21. Pain killers do not always get rid of all the pain. 22. My kids are growing up way to fast and there is nothing I can do to stop it. 23. I love to shop . . . even with the credit cards. 24. Wine is really good! 25. I still get home sick. 26. My sister is one of the most beautiful people I know. 27. Clint and I are going to be Aunt and Uncles's again on July 2nd. (Casey and Michelle will be having baby Adyson then!!!) 28. Warm cookies and milk make a GREAT lunch! (so every now and then we do not eat a well balanced meal.) 29. At any age, all you want is your Mom when you are sick. 30. Being a SAHM is way harder than I ever thought it would be. But at the same time . . . it is the most rewarding job I have ever had! 31. My husband is more talented than I EVER thought! (he just built a HUGE deck w/out ANY help). 32. I enjoy using Clint's electric drill when he lets me! 33. I miss my college friends!!! 34. Eythen is so cute with his curly hair and big blue eyes. 35. Harleigh is priceless with her smile and pig tails. 36. Breeanna is a poliete girl who is already melting little boys hearts! 37. I am a rockstar when I sing in the shower! 38. Sometimes life just does not make sense, no matter how hard you try to figure it out! 39. Nothing is better than tailgating in November right before a KU football game (but I would not be sad if I could not go to the game ... and just tailgate!!!)! 40. Eating hotdogs in public makes me think of . . . giving a blowjob. (you will never eat a hotdog again, Janet w/out thinking of me) 41. It always seems to rain after I wash my car. 42. The small of your back is an extremly sexy place on the body. 43. Our friends are like family. 44. Clint likes beer a bit to much! 45. March Madness is the best! 46. Nothing beats a pair of flannel pj pants and an oversized sweatshirt! 47. Clint would sell his soul for season tickets to KU basketball games. 48. No diamond is EVER to big!!! 49. Clint says that work is over rated and underpaid. 50. Nothing is worse than being so drunk that you throw up. 51. Having a beautiful dark green lawn is very rewarding. 52. Clint and I can not live without our Ipods/MP3 player. 53. Magic Erase from Mr. Clean was the best invention ever! 54. Seeing your kids laugh and smile is an amazing feeling. 55. I believe in love at first sight and soul mates! 56. Watermelon makes me think of summer. 57. Clint can not grill unless he has a beer in his hand. 58. Cllint is still a gentleman after being together for 9 years. (he still opens the door for me no matter where we are). 59. Pink makes me think of love. 60. Valentines is the most romantic day of the year . . . next to my Anniversary. 61. Clint and I wish we could travel half as much as his parents get to. (they just went to Boston). 62. Clint finally realized that living in a small town is the way to go. (after making fun of Erie for 9 years). 63. My parents are my heroes. (Clint is my hero, too!) 67. I will love you forever is the best children's book ever wrote! 68. When everything is coming at you, you are in the wrong lane. 69. I wanted to marry a guy just like my Dad when I was growing up, and in alot of ways Clint reminds me of my Daddy. 70. My Mom is one of my bestfriends. 71. No matter how hard I push Clint in the side at night . . . he won't stop snoring! 72. Eudora is going to be a great town to raise our kids in. 73. It scares me how many "sicko's" there are in life anymore. (why would anyone ever wanna hurt a child? ) 74. Christmas is a time for family . . . and there is no place like home for the holidays. 75. In real life, there is no backspace button. . 76. Never regret anything, because at one time it was just what you wanted. 77. Clint is bringing sexy back . . . because it is in style! 78. I am not sure who reads my blogs, but I really wish they would leave a comment at the end of it so I knew who all my readers were. 79. Everything happens for a reason! I TRUELY believe that! 80. I try to read to my kids every single day. 81. I can not wait to have my SUV loan paid off (even though it is still awhile). 82. Cellphone's are a must have anymore. 83. I love with all that I have. 84. I sometimes wonder if I am being the best Mom that I can be, and that scares me if I am failing at it. 85. I snort when I laugh, and Clint laughes at me everytime I do it. 86. Those who laugh last think the slowest . . . well, that is me. I am normally laughing at the joke 5 minutes after it is said. 87. Clint says that I am his bestfriend ... and that is a wonderful feeling!!! 88. I think 30 is the new 20!!! 89. Who ever said that happiness equals sunshine never kissed and danced in the rain! 90. Catching lighting bugs is kind of hard. 91. I like to sleep in the middle of the bed. (sorry Clint) 92. I can hardly wait to get a boob job!!! 93. No matter how many girls get together . . . labor stories will always be told. 94. Clint and I are going to renew our wedding vows at some point in timw. 95. I always wish on stars!. 96. I dream in full color and normally remember my dreams. 97. Loving someone means giving them your heart and trusting them not to break it. 98. I will be sure my kids get to Disney World before they are adults. I promise that. 99. Breeanna, Harleigh and Eythen are the best kids ever! 100. I love Clint with all of my heart, soul and being!!!
Boys day out ...
My baby boy is SO into trains. I am not sure how it happened . . . or even when it happened. We did not buy toy trains or even really any books about trains. Somehow, little man Eythen was totally into trains one day. I think our first guess was when he was pushing his large tractor around the coffee table saying "choo choo - all a board". That was our first hint that we needed to listen to our two years olds wishes!
So now (3 months since we realized his love for trains) . . . Eythen has a large collection of Thomas the Train items. He just lights up when he gets one. He starts saying "train train" and jumps up and down. It could be the same train that he got from someone else, but he could not be happier. He will spend HOURS upon end playing with this little Thomas the Train magnetic toys. He just simply loves it. Anyway, back to the point of this blog . . . when we heard that Thomas the Train was going to be 40 minutes from our house . . . we knew we had to get him there. Unfortunately, do to the price per person, this limited it to just Clint and Eythen going.
So last Saturday Clint and Eythen went off to a Father and Son day full of Thomas the Train events. Clint took Eythen, 2 hours before their scheduled train ride, so he could see everything possible. Clint said that Eythen could not stop smiling and saying "Look Daddy, TRAIN!" Clint said that he could hardly keep up with the little two year old's legs. He was everywhere taking it all in. Running from one area of displays to the next. Clint said that there were displays of all the toys available of Thomas the Train. They were sitting up in tents, so kids could watch them and even play with them. There was a tent of toys to buy as well. Of course Daddy spoiled E-Man there! One of the things he did buy Eythen, was Thomas the Train sunglasses . . . which are so funny on him. The got to ride a life size Thomas the Train for 30 minutes. There was Sir Top Hat there that you got to meet as well. Eythen walked right up to him and shock his hand and said "Hi! Sir Top Hat!" He kept walking around saying "Hi Thomas! Bye Thomas!" He just had the time of his life!
All in all, my boys had a great time. This was the first time that Clint got to have a "boys day" with Eythen . . . besides going to Wal-Mart for the afternoon or the park. This was an actual Father and Son moment, that the girls were not tagging along with. My little man is now old enough to do these kinds of things. No stroller anymore, no diaper bag, no planning for nap time around the scheduled event, no tippy cup of juice, no . . . no more baby. He is becoming a little man! Now Clint is so excited to start to do "boy things", with his little man. I think Clint's thought of "guys night out" hanging out drinking beer totally changed in a blink of an eye . . . . now haning out with little E-Man is a much cooler thing to do!
For those of you wondering what the girls and I did while they went to go see Thomas . . . well, we shopped like most girls do! We did what we do best! (I am teaching them at an early age!!! )